Everyone has his/her own goals in life.. Well, People will try their best to achieve their
goals, to be
successful in life. Different people have different goals in life. Your goal might not be my goal, and even if we have the same goal, we might not use the same route to achieve the goals.
After 2 weeks, and after pondering rationally, I admitted I was not in a conscious mind when I phone CX that morning. I was out of my mind, maybe the alcohol effect is still there... That's why I am so frustrated and so not myself, or maybe yes, it is ME.. Janice Teh Shin Yin... But it is definitely not the Janice that people use to see.....But, it is the inner Janice...
Luckily, she understands me, my feel, that's why it is always the person that knows you long long time that understands u... Perhaps, understand the true person u are...
I admit u are not my Mr Right. I knew this since the 1st month we were together.. But then, I still be with u... Having the naive thinking that we might work, but I know, we wont, and I still be with u... Those were the days we were happy to be together...
However, there are some important things that I wan2 tell u some time ago, and I don't think I will have the opportunity to tell u, or perhaps the courage to tell u...
- U ask me whether do I feel pressure if u talk about our marriage during our 1st dinner in Sunway Pyramid... Frankly speaking, I don't feel the pressure as I told u, but I didn't tel u the reason, right?? Coz u are not the type of guys that I dream to marry..However, I really like u at that time..
- U ask me to go for the KK trip and Sandakan as well.. Seriously, I feel like going Sabah for a trip, but not to meet ur parents in your house, I mean to meet your parents in Sandakan.. Coz at that time, I don't feel we are so deep in love until I gonna meet ur parents... And I knew, at that time, u really want me to go Sabah.. Even wanted to sponsor my air ticket there... Well, but I just don't feel we were at that stage..
- For once, I scolded u for cursing me unable to get married, and u asked me to marry the person behind me, which is U.. I enjoyed being hugged by u at that moment, I just really appreciate those moment u hugged me, I feel being loved, at least some time ago... But then, again, it is too fast to talk about OUR marriage, something that I know will never occur.. And well, my hypothesis is true.. We will not make a good couple.. We are just not the right one for each other..
- U always try to ask me to talk about my problems, how I feel.. Well, when it is the time I don't really feel like telling u, I wont say a word, coz there is total blank in my mind..I got nothing to say.. I just wanna u to hug me, to comfort me, to be there with me...However, there are times where I really want to tell u how I feel, but then u were not free to listen to me, even when I begged u... At that time, i seriously told myself, u are not my Mr Right... We will never tie the nuptial knot.. We will never be together FOREVER....
Problems tend to occur....
I knew I am not the one in your heart.. Even u said that right at that moment, I am the only person in your heart... Please, I am a girl, a girl which has her common six sense, who can feel something which is not right there.... I knew there is someone very important in your heart at that moment, but I don't know who the person is.. How she looks like? Why u like her so much? What makes u so in love with her? How both of u met? How attractive she is?
But anyway, I just tell myself, I just want to appreciate my time with u... My first love... Though my time with u is not romantic as I wish, at least, I achieve my goal... To date a guy before 20 years old... Lolx... kind of consoling myself... But then, again, I learned a lesson...
TRUE LOVE only occurs when u really know the person,
and the person really knows u...
Found this poster online.. Like it very much and feel like posting it here
There should be
TRUST in true love..But I don't trust U Love Me
Everything happened too
fast. We are in a relationship when I know u for 2 weeks. I don't know what's your favourite food, your favourite colour, your hobby, your thoughts etc... Neither u know mine... And I wonder how can we really be long lasting...
And we ended
fast too... Though expected...
I didn't cry nor feel wasted to end our relationship... Coz I know there is no true love between us.. The days that I cried were over....
Nonetheless, there were still times that I remember our memories....
I learned a lesson from our relationship..
My Mr Right is the guy that I really want to be with for the rest of my life...
The
romantic guy, the one that
cares me,
loves me,
tease me,
console me,
tolerate me,
sincere with me,
be my side whenever I need him.. And I'll be there with him whenever he needs me too...
Mr Right, where r u?? The guy that loves me for everything that I am...
