xoxo

I shifted back to stay in hostel during this internship period..

No more at that place that suckssssss=D

Doesn't mean to be offensive to say that place sucksss,

but it is really not the place that I want to stay

Only now I realise hostel feels like heaven

xoxo Gossip Girlsss......

Sheikraaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!! (edited Sat, 12/12/2009)

I WANT TO GO SHEIKRA NOWWWW!!!!!!

I WANT TO SCREAMMMMM...

very stress & tired oooo....

Miss here lotssssssssss..........

Internet

If u are wondering why I blog so many post today, hahaha.... well, since I didn't connect to internet since last monday, of course fully utilise the internet connection here at Starbucks, 1 Utama...

Intern cant access wireless at office, only can use LAN cable..and cant log in facebook in office... so, I am here in Starbucks today... =) to blog, log in fb, and check email...

I don't know why I can read my hotmail mails in office but cant reply... So funny....

However, didn't manage to upload some pic from my phone, showing the place I am currently staying since I left my cable in hostel!!! And my laptop no bluetooth (sure kena 'za' by LPM, saying my laptop so outdated, as the way she 'za' mee shan for not having bluetooth in MS laptop)...

Will upload next week la....If I balik hostel=)

3rd sem result

Though I thought I slacked the most this sem, the result this semester is the best among 3 semesters...

Cost information for decision making: 85 (HD)
Commercial banking: 80 (HD)
Financial Management: 80 (HD)
Company reporting: 78 (D)

Well, there is always a flaw in my results, always a small part that I am not satisfy... Always some flaws to perfect.. See, this time less 2 marks for company reporting to get HD...But at least, the internal marks for this sem is quite high compare to previous sem...

As mentioned earlier in "Mood Swings", since comp rep is my last paper, I didn't really have the mood to study.. And therefore ended up less 2 marks to HD... No blame... I've tried my best, and this time, internal marks for comp rep is so unexpectedly higher than average mark that all comp rep students get...So, though not very very satisfy with the 'less 2 marks' (which I am already used to it since secondary school time), I am satisfy with this sem results.. And my GPA and average mark has increased!!!! Hahahahahaha.... so happy la..........

First week internship at EY

I've spent more than Rm 300 on formal clothing for this internship... Aiks... I am spending like no one's business... Spending lots of $$$ in shopping (excluding those formal clothing) ..Why it is so difficult for majority of the girls to control themselves from the temptation of shopping???

And I am afraid I would end up like her... And gonna go for some counselling session, but I hope that is not going to happen to me though... Else, I would end up in debts..=(

So, the only way is DON'T GO SHOPPING MALLLLLLLL!!!!!! but it is imposible..Or else, how to buy groceries??

Ok, back to internship..

This first week of internship is really a good experince. Really learn a lot.. I have totally no regret in joining EY, despite the place I stay, and the inconvenience of taking public transport... Seriously, I am pretty sure I wont get such a fulfilling experince in any small auditing firm in Ipoh, and that's why I insist on joining EY after they offer me a place as vacation trainee (VT) here..

Well, this first week is not yet a busy one.. VTs and permanent staff were given briefing on the first 2 days, and I am placed at the TCE (technology, communication and entertainment) division.. I was totally no idea of auditing since I havent take my audit paper yet, but well, it sounds interesting when the EY staff tell us their experince as auditor in EY...

And of course, they did not forget to keep reminding us that this period gonna be very very busy, since it is year end... And we were told we must be prepared to work on xmas eve, xmas, new year eve, and definitely OT during this internship period... Well, I am prepared for OT d since the day I send my resume to EY... just that I didn't expect to work on xmas day itself...

When I started to talk with other interns, then only I realise a lot of them are from Monash, either sunway campus or those in Australia campuses... Those were back home to Msia during the long sem break... Of course, some of them from other Australia universities since this period is sem break for aussie uni... Well, but majority of them finished their 2nd year of studiess....So, no wonder i hardly know anyone coming EY for internship...

I was assigned simple job on wed afternoon and thurs, and not much to comment about those, it's just normal simple stuff, and by then only I seriously realise there is a long process to go before an audit report is done, and ready for publication!!!

Yesterday (Fri, 4 dec, 2009), my first day to go to clients place... OMG!!! It is a very very embarassing day!!!! History happen again....Embarrassing experience again like the one I face in POC in USA!!! I just don't understand why I can get so stress up, and uncontrollable...Duhhhh.......

Disclaimer: Of course not to mention the company name, and there is totally nothing to do with the company, any employee in that company, my senior... It was nobody's fault... It's just myself... My fault.. The stupid me.....

I was assigned a job to help another senior team in my division since they need help.. So, I was there in client's place.. My senior, K, give me briefing on what should I do. I was new, fresh, no idea on auditing at all... As she said: " U're very new..". Yupe.. I am. So, I am here to learn from the start, and ask whenever I have any doubts..

Ok, so, my senior K patiently teach me what should I do and the ways of doing it, and I am supposed to ask some info from clients to verify some info, which I wont be disclosing it here since that would definitely be private & confidential and I wouldn't want to end up to be in great trouble for revealing confidential info..

So, let's just focus on the embarrassing experience, I asked some info from the client and there is one part of it is regarding info on conversion of currency.. I am not sure how I gonna key in the info, and as I know from my senior, I have to ask info from client. So employee A give me the info.. Since this is the first time I am in client's place, and I don't exactly know how should I ask the info (it is not the problem of phrasing the sentence but some technical stuff), and in the end I have totally no idea what am I asking...And when I don't even know what am I asking, I can't expect ppl to understand what info I want right??? Then, at the time I am asking employee A about the info, employee B came, and therefore A ask B how/what info should she give me... And I don't really know how to ask her and end up asking 'weirdly'.. I think B is kind of person that speaks in strong tone, that's the way she talk, and as if she is angry or pissed off with someone... The way she expressed makes ppl think that she is scolding ppl or whatsoever la.. I know, it is not her fault la... Coz she is also expressing her doubts on my questions... And her tone is so strong that her colleague, A ask her to calm down.. Then, my senior K, which was doing her job with senior N in another room came out from the room and ask what happen..

At that time, I was so lost.. I feel so stupid.. Why can't I just handle my work properly and have to make up such a fuss and create trouble for others.. Giving trouble to employee A and B, my senior K and embarrassing EY as well... Senior K came out and asked what happened, and try to explain to A and B the info that I wanted...I suddenly feel so stressed up and tears drop, and symptoms of crying is there d...I know I will cry and try to stop it, but I have no control of myself... Duhhhhh... memang memalukan la... in front of senior and a few employees at clients place... Aiyoyooyoyoooo.... And as u know (and if u don't know, if I am stressed out and cry, means I cant stop. I will cry for at least half an hour, unlike if just tears dropping.. which can be wiped off)..

So, I try to control and control and control.... Listening to senior K explain to employee A and B.. And when I reach the maximum point, and I know that it is the worse point d... I need to hide.. I told senior K to explain to me later... I brought the laptop with me, went in the room where Senior K and Senior N is working, and crieddd... non stop crying..OMG!!!!!!!!!!!! So stupid la....how can I do this on my first day at client's place???? OMG, OMG, OMG!!!!!!!!!!! I reddened my eyes, and stop for a while, then hide in the toilet to continue crying... And back to the room a gain.... I am pretty sure the whole process take at least half an hour.... Haizzzzzzzz.... Is not that I don't want to stop, but it's just that I can't stop!!! Why ah?? Everytime also like this, since small till now also like this, in Ipoh also like this, in USA also like this.... Now going to step into my 20s d, also like this..... When will I grow ah??? When can I learn to control myself ah???

Nonetheless, at least, I know my weakness..

During lunch, senior N told me that this is alright, every junior will make a mistake.. It is good since u ask when u don't know. At least, ppl know u don't understand. It's much better than u keep everything to yourself and ended up doing everything wrong... Then, definitely will be scolded by seniors or boss....Senior K told me that B talks that way, she doesn't mean anything offensive.. Yes, I didn't blame anyone, i know it is my problem, and Ms Linda Loke (my piano teacher) was right. She told me this when I was Form 5,

"Shin Yin, since I know u so long, I know u will cry suddenly when u are stressed and can't perform what I expect from u.. But, what if other ppl who don't know u?? Ppl will be shocked or scared of by u when u cried out of sudden. U r a big girl already, don't cry so easily... U are no longer the small girl that I used to see 10 years ago..."

But why, until today, I am still like this?? Will I be like this 10, 20, 30, 40 years later????? Haizzzzzz.....

Anyway, the first day at client's place I really learnt..The small part that I did was just a minor procedure in auditing... There is definitely more to learn, more to gain, and I will be strong to survive in EY for this internship period...

Pre Internship at EY

Originally written on 1 Dec 2009, 8.15pm

Before I start describing my work, I got millions and trillions of complain with the new place that I am currently staying. I admit that if I weren’t doing internship at EY, I would NEVER EVER stay at the terrible, horrible place. This small room (well, small isn’t a big issue since I am only one person) is damn freaking terrible. I WON’T STAY here if I know I will stay here if I am a permanent employee for EY. At least 3 months (to be accurate, 2 months and 3 weeks) is not that long, though long 0.0. I’ve lots of 3 months experience so I wouldn’t consider 3 months is long. But who know, maybe at the end of the internship, I will feel that 3 months is FREAKING LONG… maybe?? Perhaps??

Ok, let me describe this terrible place.

The place I currently sitting to type this kinda ‘blog’, is a small place in this creepy room. And well, since no internet connection here, I have to do it in Microsoft Word, and later transfer it to my blog.. Memang kesiannnnnnnn!!!! Can u imagine?? NO INTERNET!!!

And this is the whole place that I am staying. Well, look at first sight doesn’t seem so terrible. That’s why I got cheated to stay here. The table, bed, cupboard ‘looks’ ok, just that it is made out of wood. Something similar to those tables and chairs during primary school. When I first saw, well though not so nice, I try to convince myself to stay here since I wanted so much to do internship at EY. I thought though it is so ‘woody’, I still can stand for 3 months. I am such a bad daughter, stubborn and reluctant to listen to parents, naively thinking that I can travel from sunway hostel to EY, and therefore no problem doing internship at EY. I even dreamt of driving to EY, sounds crazy right?? Since I didn’t drive so long in Ipoh, my mum also worried about my driving skills, if in kl, u guess can or not la…But then, as u know, the naïve me is so stubborn, unwilling to listen to my father, who is more expert in roads and ways in kl, pj, who told me that it is impossible to reach EY on time at 8.30 every morning by public transport. My parents persuaded me to work at one of the small accounting firm in Ipoh, which belongs to my dad’s friends. I was so stubborn to say NO!! And, only want to go EY since EY already accept my application.

So, my dad which manja me so much, who is always trying all his best to give me everything that I want if he can afford, terpaksa himself to allow me to rent a place outside. He told me all the trouble like I have to travel by public transport, safety issues (which I know it is damn unsafe in kl, pj or even subang, sunway area), everyday have to face the jam etc and also NO INTERNET CONNECTION!! Ok, and I am so stubborn and act strong and say that, never mind, I can handle all these, and I will be very careful with my own safety, which is the most my parents worried the most. So, in the end, I rented this freaking place, which I don’t think it is so terrible the first day I saw it.

My dad is such a great dad (and if ever I can, I will vote him as the greatest daddy in the world!!!!!!) that he helped me to find a place which has bus to reach EY. Since from what I know, only bus from Bangsar or Bandar Utama would reach EY, so both this choice is the place that I gonna rent a place. Bangsar, totally is a no no for me, as the rent there would be damn high since it is a known expensive high class residential area aka 高级住宅区. “Mr Gas (Guess)” is staying there, hahaha… if only u know who I am referring to…Lolxxxxx….So, ok, back to topic, so I have to rent a place around Bandar Utama, where I can sit bus U82 to Pusat Bandar Damansara, and walk around 5-10 minutes to reach Menara Milinium, where EY is located. Therefore, daddy saw there is a for rent sign outside this house, which is at Damansara Uptown and therefore jot down the contact number for me. Later then, I called, and the old man, this uncle said there is a room for rent. So, later at night, my beloved daddy bring me there to see whether I like the place and if everything is ok, then I’ll stay here temporary for the next 2 months and 3 weeks.

So, as mentioned earlier, I thought this place was ok, even though it is worse than hostel. At first visit, I feel this place is worse than hostel and I will either go back hostel or Ipoh on weekends, but if just to sleep here every night, I think I still can bear with it. So, I think, and discuss with my dad, and therefore ended up agree to stay at this place. An old couple, about 60++ years old rented this place for me. That uncle leh, half deaf punya, everytime talk to him, have to shout at his left ears,and even so, he would say, “I can’t hear, say louder!!” What the hell, I am shouting at your ears d, and u still want me to shout ah?? Seriously I would shout till u get even deaf lo… but he not blur one, esp about money. Then, keep praising his place and facilities, like tin siong yau, dei ha mou like that, where the place is not that good at all, and I know that (just dunno it is worse than what I perceived from first visit). Then his wife leh, lagi teruk, got Alzheimer 老人痴呆症. Always keep repeating what she said and very very long-winded lady.

The first time I knew that was during my first visit there.
She: Where u working ah??
Me: Ernst & Young
She: ooo..

Then not even 5 minutes, again,
She: Where u working ah??
Me: Ernst & Young
She: Very far one ah??
Me: No la, can take bus from the bus stop near your house..
She: Oh, that bus stop ah.. Next time, u stay here, I bring u there..
Me: ok ok (secretly thinking in my heart, Aunty, u think I still kid meh?? I know where is the bus stop la.. I go by myself can d la….)

Then, I pause a while,
Again,

She: Where u working ah??
Me: Ernst & Young
She: Very far one ah??
Me: No la, can take bus from the bus stop near your house..
She: Oh, that bus stop ah.. Next time, u stay here, I bring u there..Don’t worry, I’ll bring u there.
Me: ………

Few minutes later,
She: Where u working ah??
Me: Ernst & Young
She: Very far one ah??
Me: Errrr…..

Then, I knew something, she got Alzheimer..

Then I tak boleh tahan d, and go in to see ‘my room’, see whether satisfy or not. After everything, I told my dad “ok la”… then, confirm to rent lo..

That aunty repeatedly asked me twice where do I work, and “promise” to bring me to the bus stop…Duhhhhhhhhhhhhh…

So, this was during Nov…

Now, last night till this morning, my first night sleep here. And then only I know how terrible this place is!!!

Ok, dirty place, can sweep, can mop, that’s fine. But OMG, I have to dry the mop with my own hands??? WTH!!! I don’t even do that at home, neither at hostel. Even national service also no need la…. And now, I have to do it at your house, Uncle, ur house seriously damn cacat lo… After all the clean up, then go and take a shower, thought of getting a nice, warm shower. Mana tau, tak ada heater!! And crazy, the day before only JY asked me that question, and I thought there is heater there.. WTFFFFFFFFFFFF!!!!! Use running water lo.. Ei, I only occasionally bath with cold water la… Crazy@@.. but then, ok, that’s fine. I can one, NS also everyday bath cold water. Last time camping in Cameron Highlands also take bath using cold water, some more it is raining in addition to the cold weather. So, ok, 2nd trouble also never mind, I can bear with it.. 2 months and 3 weeks only ma……..

Then, at night, I sleep early since no internet, avoid watching vcd since I know I won’t stop watching and I would probably end up watching in the midnight. Then in the end, I couldn’t wake up early, which I worried most since I wake up late since week 13, and getting even worse after I finish exam.

Hence, I switch off the lights and go to bed. Wah, so dark one. Finally I understand the meaning of 伸手不见五指 (can’t see your 5 fingers when u stretch your palm open). Ok, fine. I scared, seriously. Because even at home or at hostel, when u switch off the lights, u still can slightly see, unless electricity broke down, which I seriously scared and will just go to bed at once. Ok fine, I can take it.
Then, as I sleep on the bed, then only I realize that fan is freaking noisy!!!!! Which I don’t realize all the while, since I am busy unpacking my stuff.. Wah, this one seriously cannot tahan lo….. The noise is freaking irritating that I cant sleep the whole night. I use blanket to cover my eyes, but that noise is still damn loud. Then, I off it… Finally, PEACEEEEEEE!!!! But then, freaking HOTTTTTT!!!!! How to sleep ah…ARGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Tomorrow still have to go work la…So, instead of sleeping, I “consistently” wake up to on and off the freaking noisy fan. Gilaaaaaaaaaa, macam mana nak tidur oh?????

Besides the stupid fan, then I realize when I slightly straighten my body to sleep, my leg kena the end of the bed. Wei, I never ever face this problem before lo… NS also better than here!! Uncle, how if u rent this place to a guy which is taller than me?? Siao ah?? How to sleep when your leg feels so uncomfortable?? Some more your bed so shaky, how to sleep o??? Then, I have to curl a bit and sleep, which is so uncomfortable. So, from 11 pm to 4 am, I was constantly changing my sleeping position, on-ing and off-ing the fan…and finally, I got so tired, and I dozed off…

When I am sleeping so soundly and in my whatsoever dreamland, my handphone alarm ringsss.. At 6.30 am. Aiyo, I just fall asleep la…so fast have to wake up d… Haizzzz…Ok, this is fine. I’ve chosen this job and therefore I have to wake up. No complain for this but the stupid night just make me so pissed off.

So this morning, I woke up, prepare everything, etc… and then just before I left the house (almost 7.30am), that Aunty was downstairs, at the kitchen.

She: Ei, today u go work ah??
Me: Yes (u asked few times d last night, aunty!!)
She: Wah, u work so early one ah?
Me: oh…

Then I quickly avoid her in case she asked me tones and tones of questions or tell me her grandmother story. I go and grab my stuff and go to the bus stop (luckily she didn’t say I bring u to the bus stop, if not, I have to listen to her talking again).. If I continue listen to her, I think I gonna go crazyyyy@.@