This is only Week 3 of uni and I am damn stress now.. Not because of my studies but club stuff that bothering me on and off, from day to night, weekdays to weekends and whatever.... feel like dying already... And the problem is, I don't understand why am I so into doing all these stuff??? As in I can focus so much energy and time on the club stuff and delay my studies.. Tutorial work for today only start to do it this morning... Wth!!!! Till I am physically and mentally exhausted. Even my roommate said I don't even have the energy to talk.. Look so sick!! And indeed I am, very very exhausted and SICK!! I mean really sick. I was having fever last night, sore throat and flu... Therefore, took 2 panadols and flu medicine, and dozed off from 8.30 pm last night till 8 am.. almost slept for 12 hours.. Seriously, what's wrong with me... The problem is that I don't get extra co-curriculum marks for all these stuff, not earning any $$$ or I don't see any beneficial point in this... And I am doing this, because of RESPONSIBILITY...
Well, why I am so stupid at that time to take up this responsibility?? The thought of FUN brought me into all these hassle and make me so damn freaking tired, exhausted, physically and mentally worn out. Why shouldn't I be enjoying my uni life, just go class, then do revision, relax, go swimming, movies, shopping, sleep more and maintain my relationship with friends or do more in depth reading in finance or even do part time job etc etc, but spent time and I meant overspent time on club stuff??? Do I deserve to torture myself with all these?? Or because I was again stupid and ignorant at that time.. Or because I am too soft-hearten.. whatever..whatever.. whatever.. I know I can't change anything right now till next sem.. I am already anticipating next sem, while I am currently at Week 3 of this sem???? CRAZY IDIOT!!! what the f**k!!!!! And does this means that I am so eager for exams coming this sem??? I still in the process of catching up my studies for these 3 weeeekkkkkkkkksssssssssss....
Arghhhhhhhhh,..... Just praying hard for everything to be alright..All I wish is smooth sailing.....Indeed, that's what I want now..And recover soon.. This fever and headache really driving me nuts@@
Should I see things in different perspective and stop complaining?? Or am I too stress?? Or do I think too much and worry too much unnecessary stuff and burden myself???
I guess I need better time management and budget planning as well..
There is no point regretting and life moves on....
Well, why I am so stupid at that time to take up this responsibility?? The thought of FUN brought me into all these hassle and make me so damn freaking tired, exhausted, physically and mentally worn out. Why shouldn't I be enjoying my uni life, just go class, then do revision, relax, go swimming, movies, shopping, sleep more and maintain my relationship with friends or do more in depth reading in finance or even do part time job etc etc, but spent time and I meant overspent time on club stuff??? Do I deserve to torture myself with all these?? Or because I was again stupid and ignorant at that time.. Or because I am too soft-hearten.. whatever..whatever.. whatever.. I know I can't change anything right now till next sem.. I am already anticipating next sem, while I am currently at Week 3 of this sem???? CRAZY IDIOT!!! what the f**k!!!!! And does this means that I am so eager for exams coming this sem??? I still in the process of catching up my studies for these 3 weeeekkkkkkkkksssssssssss....
Arghhhhhhhhh,..... Just praying hard for everything to be alright..All I wish is smooth sailing.....Indeed, that's what I want now..And recover soon.. This fever and headache really driving me nuts@@
Should I see things in different perspective and stop complaining?? Or am I too stress?? Or do I think too much and worry too much unnecessary stuff and burden myself???
I guess I need better time management and budget planning as well..
There is no point regretting and life moves on....
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