Why am I like this??

May 17, Saturday

Finally English paper is over. Accounting, Maths, CSC, and Econs is coming next week...

But I don't know why I am so mentally exhausted now..Did I studied too much?? But then I still have lots of things haven't finish yet..esp Econs..My brain memory does not have enough space..I need additional 'hard disk' for my brain ah....

I wanted to study, but doesn't have the mood, that's why end up watching movie, and of course writing this blog..

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I feel like finding someone to talk about my feelings now. But I don't know who can I find. Everyone seems 2 b so busy these days.. I feel like I am not so myself recently. I had changed into another person. I know I am an emotional person, my mood can just swift so quickly, but I never experience such a big difference before in my life. Even during SPM time is better compare to now.

I don't know what had happen to me. I need to talk to some1, at least a person that can be trusted. I wan2 be honest, don't wan2 isolate myself n keep my secret... I wanna achieve personal growth..

Arggghhh................'personal growth' again??

Yupe, that's true..this 2 words has been lingering in my mind for the past few months. I am sure it can't be removed away anymore....Anyway, this is good!! since I wanna achieve growth since a long time ago....
But I am sure that this few weeks I did not do so. I did not become better, but worse. Am I too stress??

I wish the answer is 'NO'!! But things just weren't going the way it should be going.. At least, this is not what I am hoping for...It can be better...

Suddenly, I feel myself so greedy. Why am I always expecting something more than what I am having?? Is it really true that human has unlimited wants?? Is it true that there must be scarcity in this world?

I am very disappointed with myself...

Maybe I am a pessimists...

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Sunday, Monday and there is Tuesday.....

The start of another paper, another new expectations......

And Wednesday, Thursday, FRIDAY.....FREEDOM!!!!!!!!

Looking forward to Friday.

Yupe. time flies.....